Life Update 1

Hello everyone

I’ve been feeling so good lately. Why is that something to report? Because a year ago I wasn’t doing so great. I’ve talked about that before so I won’t go into it here.

The feeling of perpetual happiness I’ve had this semester is a rediscovery, and I’m working as hard as I can to never let it go.

As I type this, I have the new, at this point not so new, Kendrick album playing. Issogood. I’m cry. If you haven’t heard it, you should. I’ve been really disconnected from everything including music lately which is weird because music is life.  I’m pretty much just typing as things come to me with everything I’ve been learning these past couple months.

I think the most important thing I’ve learned is honesty, and just being real with myself. First, about who I am and who I actually want to become. I realized I’d been telling myself I wanted some things I actually didn’t want because they seemed to sort of fit with the way life was going for me, or that I wanted to be something I didn’t really want to. I’ve learned to be honest to the people I really care about too, something I’ve not always been great at.

I’ve learned to be honest about the people I actually care about and work on those relationships as best as I know how, the first one being my relationship with myself. Although I have let my skincare go to shit and my hair is not looking amaze atm, I know how I feel about myself and I’m nurturing that relationship, giving myself what I need and want, including a lot of alone time. I didn’t realize just how much of an introvert I am until now. In the sense that I really love my own company, almost to a fault. Sometimes I will turn down invitations to go out or whatever or not pick the phone because I’m just really happy just being by myself with Shirley B Eniang playing in the background as I read- and if you’re that way too, embrace it. You’ll be so much happier and so much nicer to be around if you listen to what you need.

At the same time, I’m trying to get myself to do things even when I don’t immediately feel like it, and I’ve had some pretty great experiences as a result. Did I tell you guys I started exercising again? Lol and eating right and drinking tons of water. My body feels thankful for it.

I’ve learned to be real about what I spend my time doing, and the people I give my time to. I’m a horrible texter/communicator but I do my best for the people that really matter. There’s no point giving your time to people you don’t really care about or things you don’t really care about. Life is short uneh.

I should clean my room. I went on  a trip and left this place looking like a tornado flew around my room before I came (I’m still waiting on Frankie). Lol, leave me a comment if you get the reference.

Yeah, life update 1 : I’m honest, and pretty proud of it.

Oh, I also have a Youtube channel I’m doing more talking videos on if you want to see that.

Love,

Amoafoa.