Back to School

Hi there,

I have been the worst lately, and I’m so sorry about that. It’s been sort of all over the place lately and moving and doing those Target/Ikea trips haven’t really helped. I’m just trying to have my room set up, and when school starts I’ll start posting an ootd everyday on my tumblr so  be sure to follow if you want to see that, and comment your tumblr if you want me to follow you as well. I’ll also go back to my regular posting schedule from next week.

But..yeah that’s it for that. School starts on Wednesday and I’m not sure how I feel about it. Lol tbh I am sure but I hope it changes. At some point last week I got a mini panic attack thinking about it starting up again, I got really bad ones last semester but they have gotten better. Side note, if you ever realize you’re feeling overwhelmed or sad or homesick, any kind of down please please talk to someone about it. It got so bad for me that I couldn’t get out of bed because I just felt terror at the thought of going outside, and I missed half my classes, missed a midterm, it was just a mess. Until Ghislin made me go see my dean I was j chilling in my really unhealthy state. My dean got me to go see someone at mental health, I got the first ticket back home as soon as the semester was over, and tried to get myself ready to come back.

Now, some people love it at their schools and think of them as second homes and can’t wait to go back but that’s not how it is for me. It’s a great institution and I’m grateful for the resources, I usually enjoy my classes but it’s been really difficult adjusting; and I just want you to know that if you find it’s like this for you, it will get easier over time and it’s probably the best thing you could do for yourself to talk to someone as soon as you feel some type of way.

That said, it is also kinda exciting to have a whole new year of fresh experiences waiting.

I had wanted to make a video about being a freshman but I never listened to the people in any of the videos I watched and maybe it’s better to just do it and find your own way. I think all I can say really is to try to be open to meeting new people and being confronted with really different cultures and ways of thinking, and stay true to yourself. That’s a tricky one because you might realize as time goes by that you don’t really know who that ‘yourself’ is, or that that person changes depending on where you are… Basically it’s a massive learning experience and prepare yourself for that. You’ll meet great people, make great friends like I met Anna (documentary maker who takes pictures for me and filmed the lookbook) and I don’t know what I would have done otherwise; you’ll love it sometimes, hate it sometimes, it’s interesting.

Complete side not, I wore a wrap dress to work today and I saw this show with DVF on E! where she was talking about the awesomeness that is wrap dresses and I didn’t get it until right about today. I’m not really into feminine silhouettes but thisss…. you feel so sexy *first time I’ve ever used that word* and classy and like your waist is cinched in…they’re great.

Okay, have a great move in day/first day of school, I’ll see you all next week!

Peace, love and funk,

Amoafoa.

P.S you remember how I was talking about having an aesthetic in my mind that I couldn’t translate? I just found a way to and you’ll be seeing it soon, fingers crossed. We’ll see where the expat mannequin goes this year. Hugs and kisses y’all.